It makes me sad to realise that my son will grow into a man without her mother being around.
Its been long since you left Ruth. I have watched the sunrise and sunset hoping that u might return one day but all in vain.
The past four years since you left have been torture on little Nigel. He has watched other kids celebrate their birthdays in the company of their mothers.
It strikes me so hard each time Nigel asks: “daddy why mommy can’t be here”. My heart bleeds with so much pain, full of anger and regrets wishing i could have done more to keep little Nigel’s mommy stay abit longer.
Days are slowly turning into weeks, weeks giving in into months, months into years but no sign of you, Ruth returning.
Sad moments are when Nigel runs to the door in a hope that a knock from it will be her mommy. Its not me Ruth that your hurting but little Nigel.
By the way Nigel is six now incase you have forgetten. He is turning into a young man that you wanted him to be, he has love for the outdoor, water, cars and he is super intelligent just like you.
Nonetheless the reality that me and Nigel have of seeing you returning is finally nearing the end. He is coming to terms with reality of not seeing you again and i cannot blame him for that.
He is still so young to be told about Alfonso, it will just not make any sense at all. No matter the anger and the hate that you may have against me Ruth always remember that Nigel will always be a part of you.